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All lyrics written and performed by wakemare. Awake to a world aware, i sit alone and wonder What does it feel like and what does it look like, to be a part of it? The images of you, the images of me, the line begins to slide Skulking away like a terrified child back inside of me. I dreamed i was flying, and it felt so real i cried I dreamed i was dying, and when i woke up i had sore eyes and why does it seem so real, that the pain you feel just might be the thing that snaps you, oh, just might be the thing that snaps you. Thetime on the clock keeps ticking away, so i never ever feel ahead The worlds spinning around, it keeps knockin me down till i believe the voices in my head. Its just so easy to be a good little rat in a cage, You can keep it all up, you can suck it all up Just go to work and do it again. How Does it feel? how can you feel when your so full of self elation You can chew it all up, you can spit it back out, just to see if you get a reaction. You could say im insignificant, and your probably right You could say it really doesnt matter anymore and that theres never been a reason to fight. Chorus: Ive been here, waiting for some better perspective To turn around all the forgotten sums About how to feel and how to breathe in a world inside my head Where the feelings i feel could easily be invisible. And the truth could be easily inconceivable What do i do to wake myself up when theres just not enough at stake? And i could be the only one who sees all the little things that make you real But i know that im alone here, cos the sun doesnt shine on me. Here i am, this is what they've all been coming to see. Im just a little bit vague, im just a little bit pale but i know what they want me to be. Mock up suits in sharp edged boots, as the walls start closing in I cant take it anymore, i cant walk out the door it makes me wanna pull out the pin. I dont subscribe to the world they fill my head with It just doesnt seem right to be put in a cage and told how and why you should live Everything comes at an unreasonable price and yet we all live beyond our means The way it will start is the way it will end, by them tearing away at my seams. Chorus Ive been here, waiting for some better perspective To turn around all the forgotten sums About how to feel and how to breathe in a world inside my head Where the feelings i feel could easily be invisible. And the truth could be easily inconceivable What do i do to wake myself up when theres just not enough at stake? And i could be the only one who sees all the little things that make you real But i know im alone here, cos the sun doesnt shine on me.

There used to be a boy here, so innocent, so real Now the boy is just a memory, so far away he's almost gone. This time we'll be on the same side, and when to stop and when to go. Oh this time. Ill be better than you've ever known me before and ill try. Oh, if only you could see. I have this thing inside me It makes me Feel It tells me when to speak And when to shut it off My special little hopeless pet of loathing Pitts me against the world, Until it swallows all of me. Please dont look at me, please dont tell me what you see, im just so scared, of how you want me to succeed And im not worth the restless sleepless nights, im not worth the heavy price, im not okay, i know that you will never see.

I am not me, im not even a shadow close to it, just some stranger ive become, here beneath my silence. Im not the man i wanted to become, ive grown up too tired to care, and too inward to see the life i lead. What do i do from here? what do i do to change the apathy? How can working 16 hours fix the shame i feel? Its all gotten too far away from me, everybody is so different, i and i am still right here Unchanging unbecoming, im just a lot of different things to a lot of different people, i just wanna find a way to fix... I am the failure you try to hide, i am the sorrow that you despise, i am the exit sign over the black door you run to. I am the hate that burns your eyes, im the painful self demise, im the finishing line you'll never ever cross. I am the mind inside the lust, im the fear beside the trust, i am the only fucking way you'll ever leave... These people come, these people go and in time i realised im just not one of them, im something less than what i thought. I sit beneath the radar, slowly peeling back the lines, and in time ill slide back further. Ive lost all the friends and foes ive ever fucking had, they all just left me here alone when someone better bought them out. You can help me you always have i know you can try to fix it, and in the end ill be the one with the broken sores and all the scabs. Cos i know it was always you that broke me all along you took me for a ride, and stabbed that burning thorne deep into my side. I am the end im the exit, i will hold you back, i am the end i am the exit, i'll hold you back... i know your weakness, and ill exploit it, i am the me, and i am the you. These people come, these people go and in time i realised im just not one of them, im something less than what i thought. I sit beneath the radar, slowly peeling back the lines, and in time ill slide back further. These people come, these people go and in time i realised im just not one of them, im something less than what i thought. I sit beneath the radar, slowly peeling back the lines, and in time ill slide back further.

Ive tried a million things and still in here i remain. Trapped beneath the real and the insane, in a world that doesnt want to open up its eyes, i just dont know what else to try. The waves keep pulling me, into their dark undertoe, everything gets lost. Inside the waves, on top of the crest and then right back to the bottom again, i go. I dont want it to stop i dont want it to end, but then i se theres no one else who sees. How can i live this way? when i dont feel this way? and then i see its gone all too far from me. I think i could stop if i wanted to, but its just so real i dont know what to do. I think i could break if i wanted to, but im just too weak to be able to. How can i stop i want it too, i dont even know how to look at you How could i hate, though i wanted to, when i cant even speak when i wanted to. Ive lost all reason to get back what i threw away, though i never wanted it to stay, it never really had a purpose in the first place But i try to pull my self back up, and wake the wearyness from my eyes, tired and uninspired, i keep myself quiet so i cant be undermine The time has long gone to the point of no return and i feel im left behind now, while everybody else makes their name, i dont think i can play that game. Ive tried so many different ways to come across alright, ive done a million things to try to compensate for the loss inside me. And yet after all this time i still feel on the other side, away from me, away from you, and away from me, im just off in a lonely place. And cant ya see im easily pulled from my own intentions, and i cant see the point in trying if im not meant to be a part of it. Please dont walk away im not built for isolation Please dont walk away from me, im part of this creation.

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You hide the pride behind your eyes. Where no one else will see. You hide the guilt they burn to find. Its hard to know just who to be. You turn away from all you are. Too hard to accept. You lie to cover up the scar. Too painful to detect Inside the fear its like a drug. Takes hold while your astray. Inside the hole your conscience dug. You make your body pay. I complete you. You hide the fact. I can delete you. They think for you. I complete you. You hide the fact. I can deelet you. they Think for you. I complete you. You hide the fact. I will erase you. They think for you. Ive turned a blind eye to the pain that sticks inside of me Thats all been killed away, so quiet numb and empty. I used to know how to sell myself with dignity. Thats all been killed away with spineless insecurity. Can it all end this way? do i need a better reason? Its still skin and bones, and painful addiction. (I will erase you). The vain of light, i see ahead. Is just a profit poisoned. The people behind me now. Remind me how far ive gone. Ive been pushed away pushed down against the dirty floor. Im climbing up the walls, but i slump right down against the door. Its pushing against me, to push me closer to the ledge My isolation takes me to closer to the living edge. But ill try to pull me back when i get too close to come a away. Some times its just so hard, my willingness has gone astray. My ill gotten potential falls, and everything around me dies. This anxiety keeps me down amongst the living flies. Is this really as good as it gets, do i need a better reason. Its still fucking lies that bind me to addiction. They promised me everything but left me high and dry And now ive got nothing left to show to somehow stay alive. All the lies and broken words that mean absolutely nothing. Maybe that little part of me was trin to tell me something. Maybe its just a little late but its all a little old, maybe you should have realised it hurt me more than you'll ever know. Lies, lies, lies.